"Honey you sure you want to do this?"
"Yeah Mom, I think it's time for me to go."
"But, Roaring Heights? Why not buy a place here, stay close."
Mom who had always been so supportive of our decisions was having a hard time with me leaving. I was the baby of the family, and she was not looking forward to being an empty nester. I needed a change, a break from things. I loved my family, but being around nothing but couples was weighing on me. Dad also wasn't happy with the idea of my leaving but I needed to branch out. Hope said she liked Roaring Heights. Palm trees, night clubs, fun times. Lots of opportunity for me to figure out what I wanted to do in life.
So I bet you're wondering how I got here; back home and still alone.
The final week in Sunlit Tides didn't bring me any clarity.
Each of them were special to me and I just couldn't make a choice. Picking one meant hurting the other three. Well two...Gabe and I had a talk and he took himself out of the equation.
It wasn't that he didn't like me, but he felt the same way I did. There could be something there if we really worked at it, but for the most part we mutually understood we'd be better at friends. Plus the idea of a wife and kids were more his parents wants than his.
I wished him well and he left. I tried everything I could think of to make a decision. More one on one time with the guys only made things worse. I spent more time upset than enjoying myself. I never expected it to be so hard.
America had made their pick on who they felt I would be better suited with, but even that didn't help me. I had private goodbyes with each guy. It was hard and tears were shed. They were all so sweet and understanding which only made me feel so much worse.
